Sometimes it's the wee things...

..that illustrate progress.  At the moment my body is going through a lot.  6 weeks ago I drastically changed my diet and 3 weeks ago I started to exercise seriously - which is a big change, and one that I'm enjoying but it's not comfortable.  All my limbs of my body aches (inc. eyelashes, earlobes...) but it's a good aching, it's an ache of having done something positive and it is paying off.
Illustrations of my progress are evident when I stand on the scales or when I get dressed in the morning - all good stuff.  However it was last night that I had one of the big 'oh hey, go me' moments even though it was a small event.
I had met up with a friend last night for a cuppa and we chatted for a couple of hours.  By the time we said good night it was 8.15pm and I was STARVING (OK, technically not starving, but VERY hungry).  Blood sugars had crashed and I needed food immediately.  So I went to the shop and hands up, I wanted chocolate.  I was really craving chocolate.  I had the shakes, I needed food and fast and was craving the instant hit that sugary chocolate gives.  I got to the shop and stood in front of the chocolate and stared.  I've no idea how long this fruit loop stood standing, staring, dreaming of her first bite...

But then I surprised myself by walking away!  I went to the fruit & veg aisle and bought some food for dinner, then managed to find a 'Nakd' bar, which is a bar of cold pressed fruit & nuts, main ingredient being dates, with no added sugar, sweeteners, artificial stuff etc. but you can get a choco orange bar with has orange and cocoa added.  So not quite the same as munchin on a bar of cadbury's but you know what...it did the job.

I know, especially reading back what I've just written, how pathetic it all sounds but that was a HUGE test for me.  I had no witnesses, I had no one that I had to keep up a 'front' for, no one to keep me in check, it was just little(r) old me and I didn't let myself down! :)

P.s. Thank you to everyone who has taken time out of their lives to support me; be it in person, by phone, text, facebook or email (if only I had a pager this could be a longer list!!)...it really means a LOT to me ~ I've been bowled over by everyone's kindness.  Thank you!!! ♥♥♥